i am deeply disheartened by the acts of my own kind.. it is shameful and inhumane.

myspace, i am rather sick of it. malaysians that inhabit over there, it is truly sickening. they mock each other and insult like it is all dandy. it is not something i see all the time, i usually see people acting rational and think with common sense. these people, they lack that. they don't think of consequences that might befall on them. they make myspace profile in a reason where they insult and verbally abuse one community to another. i really find this act, immature and just mean. i find communities irrelevant too. i don't want to mock them or say it is stupid, i mean i don't know how they work their communities but to my opinion, i find them rather irrelevant and time wasting. i don't tell anyone to stop what they are doing and i simply do not bother. they do as they wish, and i carry on.

i find this one, absolutely ridiculous. malaysia is inhabited by so many kinds of malay teenagers. so many categories. malay teenagers in which i speak of, they insult one another about how religious they are. and how pious they are. i mean, Islam is a religion where compassion and forgiveness take part. not where you insult someone to very core and say that they are the ones going to hell.. they are so and so. if you are so pious, a good muslim, why in the world would you be doing that in the first place? irrational thinking. you only degrade us muslims and also malaysians. i don't laugh at them, it is not amusing. it maddens me and also embarasses me.

one other thing, i am absolutely fine with nudity. i actually find it beautiful. nudity in form of art is beautiful. nudity in form of high heels, skimpy clothes and racy pictures are ugly. hot pictures? what are hot pictures? is it a picture where you bare yourself to the world and fish for compliments? and then when some perverts comment you, you get very disgusted. in my form of nudity, i don't expose myself to the world while wearing my undies and doing some racy pose. i don't know, i think nudity is just how you show yourself and what you want it to mean.. i never want to take part in such.

i am just sick of people of these kinds. generations that make me sick to my stomach.

i have used the word 'sick', one too many times. i just have no words to describe them. i am so angry and just tired of ignorant people.

p/s: i am not giving the idea where i am so pious and better than anyone. i am not even going close to saying that i am the nicest or anything of the such. this is in my point of view. i am someone who tries being nice to everyone and is trying to cut down on my sins. i am trying so hard, it takes time but it will be achieved.

papa. in the plane, from jakarta to kuala lumpur.

i find that everyone spontaneously loves someone unconditionally. without even knowing it.. that's the beauty of it.

Krystal is the big sister whom i absolutely love. she has helped me through so many hardships and i thank her for that. she is currently in Oman, working. she has came back home a few times and i have missed the chance of meeting her. the next time she is here, i will be sure to see her.

<3

i truly miss my sister.

i should have posted this up on new year. next year then! haha

best friend! i hope you are doing absolutely well and having a wonderful time in Hong Kong. you should know that i miss your company and presence over here and is wondering when you will be home. i love you very much and will always be missing your silliness.

always love.

malaysia, i love you.

photograph i never knew i had. funny.

you take the shots.

i believe that you should treat others as how you'd like to be treated back. i believe in karma and sometimes being nice gets me into being taken advantaged of. i don't mind, really. i mean if i can help someone when i can, i should. i imagine myself in their shoes and that's how i get my thinking. if i am too nice, it's wrong. when i am mean, it's wrong too. sigh.. the world can never get satisfied it seems. we all need to please everyone, well enough of that i suppose. i am not pleasing anyone. i simply help because i can. i can tell when i am being taken advantaged of and i can avoid it when it has gone overboard. i just don't know why i am wrong right now.

do good when and you will truly feel good.

All my fishes died on Thursday :( they died of contamination and some other mysterious source. I don't take death lightly. Even so fishes, it made quite an impact on me.

House lizard. He depicts such ways that familiarizes him with his Father.

i am not too sure what this symbolizes but i know, i love 4.5 dof. just take a look at that bokeh, YUM.

Matryoshka. A Russian stacking doll. A gift from the lovely Yana.