And the crowd goes wild.

2009-11-27T11:12:00.002+08:00

Nutcase or not. She is my mother. I will not deny that she is my mother. I will not hide from the fact that she is my mother. She is only human. She gave life to me in substitute of God. All I can ever do in repay is taking care of her when she is in pain and confusion. I will not want her to be made a fool. She has taken care of me since I was still a child. Why can't I do the same? I love her. Afterall, she is my blood whereas you are only half. In the end, there will regrets that can only be a remembrance.

2009-10-20T03:32:00.004+08:00

why do i love you so much? it is still a mystery. i anticipate the moments when i get to see you. you hold me ever so tight, never letting me go. i'd give you the world if i could, sweetums. just by looking by a photograph of us or you, makes me feel so light and empty. carefree and happy. you make me so in love with everything around me. you are always delighting me with just the sound of your voice, husky yet ever so soft. there will always be a warmth of protection wrapped around you though you may be stubborn and in doubt, rest assure babycakes, i will still be by your side every moment of every day when you need me the most.

i just want to shower you with kisses and hugs. pamper you with affection and stay in your arms. you and your quirky ways, never fails to draw a smile on my face. i adore you baby, yes i do. you spoil me, you spoil me with love. i had never felt this loved in a very long time. i thank you for giving me love and faith. you are my wonderwall, my babycakes, my love and my everything.

i've had my insecurities and my lone filled nights when we are apart, it is because i miss you. i always miss you, day or night. my doubts quickly wither and you sugarcoat me with newly found reassurance. i never want you to go away, never ever! i love you, azizi.

2009-10-04T05:08:00.003+08:00

checkkitdout!

2009-10-04T05:08:00.002+08:00

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checkkitdout!

2009-10-04T05:08:00.001+08:00

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2009-09-05T02:21:00.002+08:00

I love you, Ahmad Azizi. I love you so much and I just don't know what I'll do without you. I don't know how I'll live without your presence. Just having you makes my day better each day and I go mad just the thought of losing your touch. You are caring, thoughtful, lovely and wonderful. Underneath that tough hide, you are a soft spoken boy who just needs affection and love.

I love you, my dear.

2009-08-27T02:12:00.000+08:00

my moon; my man

2009-08-22T02:14:00.001+08:00

i guess it wasn't.

2009-08-18T20:11:00.000+08:00

for more photographs, check out my flickr

2009-08-18T20:08:00.000+08:00

2009-08-18T20:07:00.000+08:00

hazel rosli

2009-08-18T20:04:00.000+08:00

hello

2009-08-18T20:00:00.000+08:00

nadia zainuddin

2009-08-18T19:57:00.000+08:00

bukit tinggi. on jusco rooftop

2009-08-18T19:47:00.001+08:00

2009-08-18T19:46:00.001+08:00

it was a beautiful night too.

2009-08-18T18:37:00.001+08:00

it was a beautiful day out.

2009-08-18T18:20:00.002+08:00

i apologize for the lack of posting but i am clearly too active in surfing the net. yes i have deactivated my facebook and i am much more difficult to contact as i never touch my phone too. let us just have a break.

my mind has just shut off. i am not very in tact with my emotions lately. i am having a tough time interpreting what exactly that i need and want but something for sure i know is that i lost my ability to be compassionate to loving someone. i wasted too much tears, i wasted my time and i basically just feel better enjoying the thrill of being love-less. it is not pathetic, so i think.

my body is aching, my head is throbbing, and i am confused.

2009-08-14T19:35:00.002+08:00

dear joy, you are so amazing. you captivate me every time i stumble by your stream and your website. i have been inspired by your creativity and genuine mind.

you will go far and you just amaze me. praise God he made you.

2009-08-14T16:30:00.000+08:00

"Eyelids half-closed in slumber, I sigh a barely audible murmur as careless strands of her hair tickle my shoulder blade. You would think that I’d be accustomed to this daily routine, but I always jump in surprise when she pecks at the nape of my neck with her kisses. Feeling the inside of her thigh curl around my waist, I turn around to embrace her, and thread my arms through hers.

I greet her with a lazy grin as my eyelids flicker in adjustment to the morning light. Searching her curious stare brings a new revelation with each passing view. The blind-filtered sunrays that bring warmth to our intertwined bodies amplify the natural glow that emanates from her. I’ll never tire of the visage of morning light that traces her profile and lights her hair ablaze. She has such a great smile…

What? she asks. I love you, you know that? Before she can utter a bashful protest, I brush my lips against hers to reaffirm. Our noses nuzzle as my hands stray across her skin, smooth to my touch. Do you want to get up? Nah, I reply. I think I’m going to just stay here with you. Her fingertips playfully run down my back.

She smiles, I love you too. We make small talk, share kisses, and exchange jokes that only we could understand. We savor the meaningful little things that most tend to forget. I live to make her happy. I live to make her laugh. I turn around as she hugs me once again and my eyes close in the welcome comfort that is her.

My eyes open and I’m swallowed by the darkness of my room. Hey, cutie- my voice echoes as I reach out to someone who isn’t there. My arms come up empty and my hands clutch at wrinkled bedsheets devoid of her presence. The routine we crave is robbed by the distance between us. I briefly glance up at the ceiling knowing that her ache mirrors my own.

The blur of the alarm clock casts a red glow on the wall like an emergency exit sign. I fumble around for my glasses. It reads 1:33 a.m. I remove my glasses, turn over in a futile attempt to become comfortable, and close my eyes.

I hate that you’re not here."

Bear.

2009-08-08T16:18:00.002+08:00

i am very out of sync today. everything is just not in order and very cluttered. i cannot take it anymore. i don't know what else to do now. i cannot communicate with anyone because i will only make it worse.

bah i'll wait till my hair dries.

2009-07-25T02:32:00.003+08:00

making love and fucking- totally different.

sigh inside story

2009-07-20T20:25:00.002+08:00

my mind is all a rage. i can feel myself thumping against my skull just waiting to release tension and all that i am this moment.

i spend my time alone with deep relish. i like being alone when the feel of knowing someone will be back after a period of time stays intact. that's not much help i could have but it works. i hate being unsure. i am unsure of what i want and what i need. i ponder and ponder till i can't no longer. i would love to be spontaneous but it just tenses me. i wish i could leave to another land and be someone new. i enjoy being someone new, anonymous and alone. i don't like getting too personal with anybody. nobody should pry anything from me. i want to remain friendly but anonymous. they know me as a person but they can never know me from inside.

nobody knows anybody and that is all that is to it.

2009-07-20T01:23:00.001+08:00

sitos taken by my newly acquired lover, the nifty fifty :)

2009-07-14T16:25:00.003+08:00

i'm in the lobby cause there's absolutely no wifi my phone can find up in the room. Sydney's beautiful though and really cold but withstandable. And the elevator in the lobby is crazy, it was being fixed just now so they put up a sign saying it's temporarily unavailable, use the other elevator out back. And now it's fixed but the sign was on and everyone had their doubts hahahaha they were like you're sure right? We're not gonna get stuck suddenly right? And i was like yes yes just get on. Hahahaha went to unilodge and the opera house. I'm tired. The rest are upstairs sleeping. I'm bored and i miss malaysia but i kinda like it here uh oh. Hahaha time to get me some white hot chocolate. See ya :)